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Just Let Go pre-dawn stars grow dimmer darkness fades now deep blue fades into the soft glow coming coming coming peeks out first between the nook of Aldape Summit - little summit - between two other summits diminuitive yet chosen today to be the place where rising sun casts light into valley onto valley in a widening V south sides of the mountains left behind in shadows for now meadowlarks and starlings sparrows and unknown birds sing chirp call someone is speaking to this heart just let go how many heartbeats have you ever had to think about? how many breaths have you controlled? how hard did you work and plan and fret to make me rise today? look! here i am rising breathing beating calling chirping singing what is that thing you are holding? what is that thing you are carrying? what is that grasping and clasping of the hands? what is that closing and protecting of the heart? what is that fretting and ruminating of the mind? perhaps i shall let you beat your heart? perhaps i shall let you breathe your breath? perhaps i shall let you give the birds their song? perhaps i shall let you rise as a glowing orb upon the world over and over and over? perhaps i shall remind you to let go? let go let go let go let go did you not hear the song? did you not see the darkness giving way surrendering accepting releasing? imagine a day when and where you don’t have to beat your heart and breathe your breath and give the birds their song and rise upon this world wait that day is today i rise to find this computer to type what i have heard such profundity!! and as i make my way downstairs to get it and then back up with it i feel as if the perfect words are already disappearing as quickly as the shadows on the south side of the mountains that are almost not shadows now i sit down and open this contraption and it is a blank screen staring at me damn battery! come on! and i am trying to hold on to the words because they were so good but here i am waiting and they are flowing by like ripples on the river damn! i grow hot and try to hold on until i see my reflection in the blank screen and it is laughing at me because this is it! the song! right here in this moment of holding on reminding me of letting go and i laugh we laugh and i can no longer see the blank screen because my eyes are closed and my face is raised to the east and i am letting go and i am letting go and feeling with this glow seeing with this glow being with this glow